Finding Peace in the Chaos

Rescue Thoughts:

Running LuBo’s Legacy is not my only job. I work full time, sometimes more than full time. Then I run a household as a single mom to 2 amazing boys.

LuBo’s Legacy is a passion, a love that i struggle with daily. I get frustrated when people call me an angel, they don’t know how I do what I do. I don’t know how I do what I do.

I don’t know how others can look away. I feel so deeply that it is often physically painful.

So every few months I run away. I run to where I feel most at home. Isla Animals. I spend the day cleaning poop, cuddling dogs. Sitting in my thoughts with those who I most closely

Relate to. We don’t even need to speak. We are one and the same.

I find peace in the chaos. My brain slows in the repetitive tasks required everyday. Like a knotted piece of yarn my thoughts happily unravel until they begin to make sense.

Until I find where I belong in this world. One look from a pup in need. One paw, one puppy kiss and everything makes sense again. The world seems to right itself. The wrongs are meaningless, the sadness goes away. The forgiveness envelopes me and the peace takes over.

The world can spin around me and I stand still in the middle watching it move. But breathing slowly, calmly & feeling ready to catch the next wave.

This is what feels safe to me. Then I come home, to a place that no longer feels safe. No longer peaceful. And the yarn begins to form its knots again.

I’m sad for us. Sad that we cannot see the damage we are doing day in & day out. Yet I don’t know how to fix it. So I jump back in: saving one dog at a time